oh those dreams.

i've made so many different myspace's and i'm sorry, but i just can't get into it. i don't see the point of exploiting yourself and others on the internet. it just seems as though a way to brag about who gets fucked up more. i may be guilty of that. but, i just don't like it.

ah, so-so-sorry.


went a bought a car today, 2007 Toyota Yarius Liftback. a sweet ass car.

i'm watching big black bust his ass on MTV right now, and it's so funny.


you vibin' me? haha.

this weekend has been pretty rough. i found out that my dad is leaving my mom. he's not screwing us over or anything. it's just shock, i'm sick of talking about it, because every time i do i just think about how heart broken my mom is. and i'd rather not do that.

how can someone throw away 26 years of marriage? it's not even special anymore.

i have nothing else to say except that i'm excited for poker night tomorrow and not to listen to the rumor of my supposed pregnancy. way to go, angie.

i almost threw up this morning i was so scared. luckily i passed!!!! thank god.

i thought i wasn't going to because of some women that looked like she had downsyndrom. the idiot, put her turn signal on, got over to the right lane and even slowed down to turn, but the retard didn't and there was almost an accident. the guy said i did nothing wrong though. hah.

that was so much weight lifted off my shoulder.

i can't wait to start school.

i have my road test tomorrow and i'm petrified that i'm going to flunk. hopefully not.

hope i don't get some douchebag.

i had so much to say about how, would this world be a better place if things worked out more equally for everyone? or would it just turn to choas. not everyone wants the sames things, different views, different opinions, right?. so what would happen if it was like that, would it be anarachy that everyone loves, yet fears at the same time?

how can happiness be found within power and money. the twisted ways of ruling this country have screwed us into thinking that's what real happiness is. how do you know what's right from wrong? who gives you the truth to think what you want, or to be taught into thinking something else.

i don't want to be held down. i still want to live in a silver bullet in georgia and live the simple life of not caring if i'm going to have enough money for next months rent. i'll just pack up and start all over. i want to meet new people all over the world, to know what makes them truly happy. how they were brought up, and why they think what they think. are more and more people finding happiness in the sterotypical contentness of a life with, a house in the burbs, 2.5 kids and a dog, or are they finding this happiness within themsevles believing what they believe and only that. is there only a select few who charish the simple moments? or is everyone speeding through life without even realizing how fast those things are slipping by?

maybe in the south things just seem slower and more peaceful there. i wish it was 1945, and i was driving across the country with people who know that there's nothing to stop you until you hit the boarder. that seems like the perfect lifestyle. knowing that nothing stands in my way. i suppose that's the mentality though. things are stopping me, i'm stopping myself of what i want. afraid of leaving and failing to actually go some where.

i don't really get sex in the city sometimes. they all try to be so strong, so self-dependent. nothing can hold them down, and nothing stands in their way of getting what they want. but, they seem to try to do anything in order to please their man. i don't get it.

i wish it seemed more like fall, like last year, where i could walk around at night and it'd actually be pleasent. you know that fall smell? crisp air, and the vague smell of burning leaves. that auburn sky at dusk, being cold enough to wear just a nice warm sweatshirt.

i'm freaking out and wish i had such a good book to read right now. that would be ideal.


i'm going to have a cigarette in the crisp air.

ahhh, now what?

"jesus is like a doughnut. there's always a place for you and me in the middle."